Fess'n Up

Hello friends, long time no post. Many are the excuses: My ex crashed my car and I might be getting sued by a slick posse of insurance lawyers. Why did I let him drive it? He had to take our sick daughter to my mother's house because I couldn't get off work and pobrecita couldn't go to school. I didn't need the car back right away, but would have reconsidered had I known he was going to take it out late-night and poorly time red lights on Geary Ave. Did I mention the car was in my big brother's name, and how he is much less than amused? My grandmother suddenly fell ill and passed away within a matter of weeks. Between work and school I saw my little girl only while she slept, or when I was shouting at her to hurry because we were going to be late for * (*insert any destination here). There were other things going on too, but of those I shall spare ya'll the visceral details.
Fortuitously, during this time of extreme friction I was also swimming the limpid waters of yoga philosophy, and surrounded by a fantastic, supportive community (I'd like to shout a big mahalo to everyone that took care of my daughter while I was in class...it takes a village indeed). As I swerved around town oscillating between an anxious panic and a serene calm, I often experienced moments of intense gratitude that any such calm ever existed, and that I was sometimes granted access to it, even in the midst of chaos. Funny thing about gratitude: the more you indulge in it, the more it comes to visit. I am awed at the blessings showered upon me on a daily basis. So when someone shakes their head in pity and tut tuts about how I've had a rough couple of months, I don't mean to be flippant when I shrug, "C'est la vie!" I'm not pretending I don't care, but I am most certainly drinking out of an over-flowing cup!
Excuses and rapid personal growth aside, I apologize for my absence. I simply had to take inventory and focus on the basics for a minute. This blog was one of the things that could await the return of my attention. The kid, the job, Granny, and the team of lawyers were not. I am very happy to be back.



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