I'm not sure why I thought this would be easy. Every time I sit down to post an entry I wage an internal battle with myself. First there is what I should write, witty observations on the philosophical life. Then there is what I want to write, the stuff that is really on my mind. This stuff is slightly more biographical, certainly more intimate and, for the most part, totally inappropriate. Finally, there is what I am allowed to write, what is left that falls into the narrow alley of acceptable. The first + the second, filtered through the third = this blog.

This is problematic for me. How can I adequately relate my experiences while taking this course if I am unable tell ya'll what is really going on? A blog is a public as public gets, and we humans take great pains to be respectful and gracious in public, even if we are the opposite behind closed doors. We are forced to observe social requirements, or face ostracization. So I can't really write about my family, or my job, or the guy I am sort-of seeing, for fear of being disowned, fired, or dumped. But these are the people and the relationships that make up my life, and to what I am attempting to apply my newfound knowledge. Do you see where I'm coming from? I want to write the truth, but I can't...and that just sucks.

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